Making Decisions

On November 3, 2017 my OBGYN gave me the wonderful news that I was expecting. Little by little I will walk you through my wonderful journey in this blog. I was so excited about the news that I didn’t know what to do. I have been very physically active, going to the gym up to 5 time a week, being fit is very important to me, so I wasn’t going to let this pregnancy prevent me from doing so unless the doctor tell me otherwise. My first decision was to stay as healthy as possible so I continue to go to the gym as normal.

As the months went on I was very impressed with my progress, boy!, I didn’t get sick, no headaches, no nausea, no vomiting, no pain in fact nothing really, So I was ecstatic and may be I was lucky, who knows. I was always afraid of being pregnant and getting sick specially when is a pregnancy that is not plan. You have commitments, you have to work and continue to make a living and much more. Everyday I would give thanks to God for allowing me to be ok and be able to function at work and for allowing to do my daily activities without any problem. I will tell myself Janitza you have made very good decisions as far as eating healthy as possible and also staying in good shape.

When you are pregnant there are a lot of things that comes to your mind specially when you are 40 years old and consider a high risk pregnancy. I was very diligent in following my doctors orders. Throughout the years  I have been a very fast decision maker. I am a person that knows what I want, how I want it and whether the decisions I make are going to be beneficial to me. During my pregnancy I started making one decision after another, sometimes they came very natural to me and sometimes where decisions that I had to think about for a minute or two. I remember my first decision was to put school on hold for a bit because I knew I would have my plate full and I couldn’t allow myself to be overwhelmed more than what I already was. Another decision made was to not find out the gender of the baby. Let me tell you about that decision I made!!. It was a quick decision to me because I always said to myself If I ever get pregnant I would like to not know the gender of my baby and that decision needed to be respected but it was very hard for so many people like my family members. I know we all live in a world where women want to know, they want to be prepared, they want to be organized and me not being that way didn’t mean I didn’t have all of those characteristics, it was just the fact I wanted it that way, I wanted it to be a surprise. I was lucky enough that my fiancé wanted it that way as well. We were thrilled about the decision we both made but some other people weren’t. Have you ever had to make a decision about something and didn’t make it because of thinking what would others think? Think about it, I think a lot of us do it because we always want to please others. Why? Why do you have to please others before pleasing yourself? Could you take a moment to think about this and tell yourself why do I do this all the time? It is time to be BRAVE, make yourself happy with the decisions you make on a daily basis. I always tell people ” you do not live in my shoes” and that is the honest truth.

In conclusion I didn’t let anyone know the gender of my baby until I had her. I had so many people questioning why I wanted it to be that way and I had so many people who were so happy for me not finding out and doing it the old school way. I was so delighted for keeping my wishes alive and never let anyone crush them. I was so radiant when I was told in the surgery room that I had a girl.

Next time you have to make a decision make sure you let yourself know I am making this decision because is the best decision for me and I should do what my heart tells me to do not what others want me to do.

“Your life changes the moment you make a new, congruent and committed decision”

-Tony Robins